Good day to everyone :) This week has been energetically quite intense, which not only burdened our physical bodies but also our nervous systems, and many physical, mental, and emotional symptoms have been felt. The recalibration and cleansing continue, not only with us humans but also with the Earth. This week, when I went for a walk and looked at nature, one word came to my mind - change. Nature changes cyclically, life is a series of changes, just like with us humans. We change a lot day by day and month by month, even if our minds don't see the changes, as it perceives that nothing is happening. But something is always happening, it just needs a shift in focus.
Today's weather is not like it was years ago. Since I've been living here in Austria, I don't remember a winter being as cold, frosty, and dry as this one. As I talk to people from different parts of the world, they all report that the usual seasons are now different, and they are experiencing things they've never experienced before. I feel sorry for the children now, as they couldn't build snowmen or go sledding this winter season.
The drama on the world stage continues. It seems to me that since Trump won the election, a domino effect has started, because the skeletons that were previously hidden in the closet are now starting to fall out, and the media is reporting on it. I think this is a good direction toward disclosure, something that was once just conspiracy theory, and the unveiling of the Cabal and its previous "activities" to humanity.
A video from Benjamin Fulford appeared, where he reports that the Cabal wants to take him out, and he also talks about the Japanese police and who the real members of the Japanese government are. You can watch it here - with English subtitles:
This is not the first time they've tried to silence Fulford, as he releases a lot of information about the Khazarian mafia and world news, which the media presents in a completely different way. Regarding the Japanese government, I had a conversation with an old Japanese friend years ago, and he also said the same thing - that it's actually not the Japanese who are running the government, but China."
The bottom line, which I’ve mentioned before, is that the governments of different countries serve foreign and private interests, not the people of their own country, who actually voted them in. In Austria, there is still no legitimate government since last year's election because the various parties couldn’t agree on a coalition, so maybe there will be another election, or the parties will pull themselves together and finally focus on the interests of Austrian citizens instead of fighting over the spoils of power. Until then, the economy and people's welfare are declining, inflation and prices are rising, and more and more large companies - workplaces - are going bankrupt. The iconic Austrian souvenir chocolate, Mozart Kugel, also went bankrupt last year (it was in foreign hands), so the production of this sweet has come to an end.
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This week's topic is for those who feel left behind in life, and this is something that came up again during my "meltdown" this week. Some call it a midlife crisis, others call it burnout, but the feeling is the same. The feeling that you’re a supporting character on the stage of life, and you're dragging behind, because at your age, you're not where others are, you haven’t hit those milestones yet. But why do we think this way? In this matrix society, we've created an achievement process, which we call the "order of life," but it’s really a generational programming. I remember when I used to talk to my parents about life and they more or less explained how it’s supposed to go. You’re born, you're a child, you finish school, get a profession, go to work, earn money, get married, have a home, have children, work, retire, and then you die. Even then, I thought, “Is that it? Is that life?!” It seemed so bleak, cold, and where am I in all this? I'm going through the motions in this big world, fulfilling my “duties” and then eventually dying. Where is the happiness, the love of life, the miracles, the playfulness, and the exploration that we saw life as when we were kids? I didn’t see my parents or the people around me as happy, fulfilled, content, or peaceful. I even used to tell my parents that I didn’t want to grow up, I didn’t want to be so “tired, worn out, and unhappy.” They told me I couldn’t be a child forever, that I would eventually understand what it was like to be an adult. My stepfather believed that as a woman, I would find fulfilment in raising children, that would be my source of happiness, because that’s my primary task... do you think I agreed with him? Me, as a woman, could only fulfil myself through motherhood? Then where’s the "I" in this game as an individual? To be honest, my worldview clashed with my family’s many times, as I was the eternal rebel, never satisfied with how things were.
I saw children as beings in rainbow colors, and adults were gray, having lost their colors, that inner prism. I didn’t want to be like that, but as I moved through life’s ups and downs, the lens through which I saw life and myself faded, the grayness settled in, and I understood why I saw adults the way I did. All those lessons, struggles, the “slaps” from life, and the programming, like a black mass, attaches itself to this inner lens through which we view life, and we slowly move away from that inner child, from our soul.
We all have desires, this inner driving force that gives us the strength to get up in the morning and get through the day. It’s like the carrot on the stick, being waved in front of us, and we run a marathon trying to reach it. But often the "divine timing" is so far away that we give up halfway. This is why we feel like we’re falling behind. But are we really lagging in life, or is it just a mental perspective?
Most of the suffering comes from comparing our lives with others’. The neighbour's garden always seems greener. I know this because when someone is at a low point or stops for a moment, they do this, just like I do. Then there are societal and family expectations, pressure, etc. Here we are in our 30s or 40s even 50s and when you look at someone else's life and then your own, you realize that you haven’t achieved anything. You don’t have a career, you don’t have savings in your bank account, you haven’t found your soulmate yet, there’s no family, no kids, no own home, etc., while someone else in their 20s or 30s seems to have unlocked everything. Naturally, we feel like a failure, and we start looking for the fault in ourselves. You ask yourself why and how they managed to make it through, and why you haven’t. Even though you worked for it, you worked hard, and yet the long-awaited result hasn’t come, the breakthrough, the success, your wish fulfilment.
In reality, we don’t know the path our soul has planned for us. The ego has a rigid idea about what, how, and when it wants, and constantly controls and fights for these things, yet when they don’t happen, we can be very hard on ourselves. We may feel like the Universe is simply ignoring our wishes, our desires, that it keeps putting obstacles in our way, and we don’t understand why. Endless lessons from life. Naturally, we become discouraged and feel like we’ve fallen behind.
Each person’s journey in life is unique, and I believe everyone is where they’re supposed to be...but it is so hard to accept. Late bloomers, it’s not shameful if you haven’t found yourself yet, if you haven’t hit the matrix’s life achievements, or if your deepest desires haven’t manifested yet. A big hug to you, and stay strong. Flow with life, let life - your path unfold as should be, take the lessons and relax...I know it´s easier said than done, I´m in it, and I know that our ego is very goal oriented, while our soul is more the experience of journey oriented...we are impatient, we want, we do and do...while life is not a rush game.
Here’s a video that might better summarize what I wanted to say, and offer comfort if you feel this way, in any area of your life...for me gave. Nothing is wrong with you...just the programming and our mind which is a powerful tool but we overthink a lot...but this is another topics.
▬ Chapters ▬
00:00 you're not behind in life
00:33 beautiful day in nature
01:03 lessons from rush hour
05:41 take the scenic route
09:32 slow down. the timeline doesn't exist
13:06 are you living for you or someone else?
17:22 the joy in falling behind in life
20:20 the journey IS the destination
25:12 this is your life
30:07 guest star: the squirrel
30:35 Reclaim your time.
33:24 walk to fly
36:24 silence the inner colonizer and save your life
43:53 trust your joy. trust your own timeline.
49:36 live. that's the whole point.
52:00 love yourself
52:43 "late bloomer"
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One of my favorite cartoon is Mulan, and it really touched my heart when Mulan’s father tried to comfort his daughter under the cherry trees. "My, my, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look! This one's late. But I'll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all."
I end this post here with a beautiful music again from Schiller - Hochland.
Life is a symphony.
Have a nice weekend and a brand new week :)
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