Weekend Vibezz - 28.03.2025

Hello again... better late than never. This is the third time I’ve started this post within the past three weeks. You might have noticed that I haven’t had a personal post in a while this month. The reason is simple: somehow, the words just didn’t come to me, and I didn’t feel like I had to write, even though there were things happening that I could have written about. This is not the first time I’ve had a block like this, and while I’ve broken through it before and the post turned out as it did, this time I simply decided to go with the flow and do something else when I couldn’t jot down my thoughts.

These March energies are quite intense, often leaving me exhausted. There were mornings when I woke up tired, and there were times when the energy just hit me, and I had to lie down for a few hours to recharge before I could continue my day. It’s funny, but you could call it "buffer time," because during rest, the body integrates incoming energies more easily, and our spirit guides work with us more effectively when there’s no resistance. The cleansing process is ongoing, and the easiest way is to go through the things and emotions that arise with ease and grace, because it’s much easier afterward. Several past and present wounds, hurts, and pains came up for me as well, which I cried myself to sleep over, and in the morning, I felt much, much better. In the past, a bad, unpleasant, and heavy thing would follow the other, no matter how hopeful and positive you were. The "shit tsunami" would often come in force, whereas this year, I’ve noticed that life is finally compensating in the right direction. It’s as if the invisible scale finally balances something good after something "bad," if you stay positive or not.

After the Lunar Eclipse, the New Moon and Solar Eclipse are coming, making sure to bathe the surface population in strong and transformative energies, because let’s face it, we carry so many heavy burdens from life to life, and often not all of it is ours. We inherit unresolved and unhealed burdens from our ancestors, and many of us carry the collective human energy as well.

In terms of world events, quite a lot has happened. The Cabal ensures that the show must go on. Here in Europe, they are pushing the continuation of the Ukrainian war and the armament of Europe - ReArm Europe plan - Readiness 2030, and they want the population to participate in it. Well, an average person doesn’t want war, and they’re not going to spend their savings (for those who have any) on the toys of war profiteers, especially when costs are rising and many companies are going bankrupt, leaving behind a lot of unemployed people.

Another front is the animal epidemic, where large numbers of cattle and livestock are being slaughtered unnecessarily in Poland, Romania and Hungary. I saw a small report with a young girl who inherited her grandfather’s profession and is now rescuing and taking care of livestock - cows, pigs, goats etc. This was the girl’s life and dream, and the authorities took everything from her, emotionally crippling her. Even though she had her animals tested and the results were negative (meaning they were all healthy), the authorities – a hunter – killed them all. This report was touched my heart especially about the injustice and I wanted to share this but Facebook has now blocked it and it is not available anymore. Cabal try again control our food supply as they do around the globe and later they will sell the meat at gold prices.

https://telex.hu/english/2025/03/12/the-last-time-this-happened-in-hungary-even-the-sparrows-were-shot

Another chaos-causing event, or "they know what’s coming," is that the population has been urged to have enough food, water, medicine, and alternative power sources, meaning "to be on their own for 72 hours," and member states are also urged to stockpile supplies. Hmm, this smells like a 3-day darkness, which would likely be a power, internet, and communication shutdown.https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/mar/26/stockpile-supplies-72-hours-disasters-attack-eu-tells-citizens

This week, there was a beautiful sight in the sky across Europe, and mainstream media even reported on it. Many people had theories, but since the SpaceX launch happened around the same time, it was quickly explained away with that. Whatever it was, it was a pretty sight. I didn’t see it, as generally, when there’s any celestial phenomenon here, the weather is cloudy.

https://www.space.com/space-exploration/launches-spacecraft/mysterious-blue-spiral-spotted-over-european-skies-what-was-it-photos

The Middle Eastern conflict is also burning, as are the Florida´s swamps. Powerful Earthquakes, unusual weather, floods etc. It looks like the chaos created by natural and amplifying this with Cabal´s forces attacking on all fronts until it collapses within itself, just like every great empire in the cyclical flow of history.

Also, an Egyptian discovery is keeping the media excited. It’s strange that it’s happening now because this technology has existed before, and many scientists and people are engaged in finding out what’s under the pyramids. It reminds me of an ancient energy power bank.

https://www.euronews.com/culture/2025/03/26/going-underground-experts-clash-over-hidden-city-beneath-egypt-pyramids

After a cold and dry winter, spring has finally arrived with plenty of sunshine and rain. Nature is finally awakening, and I’ve even set up my solar figurine string lights... I love them; they create such a cosy vibe at night. Here are a few pictures from my little garden.

I’m still working a lot on my cross-stitch project; it’s quite detailed and large, which is why it’s progressing slowly, but I think the final result will be really good. I’ve also generated a few more images, and some of them have been uploaded to the blog. The ones that might be part of a project, I haven’t posted. Unfortunately, I’ve encountered situations in a few innocent cross-stitch support groups where some people steal images of other people's work and present them as their own. But why? For a few likes? We don’t stitch for likes and praise; we do it because we love it and for the feeling it gives us. It calms me down, grounds me, gives me peace, and a sense of achievement as months of work and small stitches come together into a picture.

Unfortunately, there have been a few cases where people tried to scam me during picture sales, as well as numerous email scams. The funniest one was someone who contacted me on behalf of the Illuminati to make my dreams come true... they clearly hadn’t read my blog...

Sadly, there’s been an increase in scammers in many areas of life who deceive people for a small or large amount of money. There have always been scammers, but they seem to have multiplied and become more cunning. So, everyone should use common sense, think things through, research, trust their gut feeling, and not let themselves become victims of fraud.

The closing post of this week’s blog features a song from a series that I really enjoy: Wheel of Time. The third season is currently airing and this song was accompany with breath-taking landscape pictures - instant fall in love with it. If you like fantasy series, magic, conflict, character development, prophecies, drama, and quests, I think you’ll enjoy it too.

When will the next Weekend Vibezz post be, will it remain regular or rather irregular...I don't know, just as I don't know if there is a demand for it, would you like to read it, or should I stick to posting other people's posts...we'll find out. In addition, I do what I feel like doing, be it generating images, embroidering or writing. I wish everyone perseverance in this powerful energetic period and peace, because this world really needs it.

Have a nice weekend and good start of the new month! April´s energy is loading :)

Weekend Vibezz - 28.02.2025

The last day has come, and we can say goodbye to February and welcome March this weekend. The energies have been intense this week, with solar flares and the accompanying symptoms possibly making our daily lives more difficult. I even had to take a nap on Tuesday to be able to function somewhat for the rest of the day.

Lately, I've been spending most of my time on my cross-stitch project, which requires a lot of work and patience since this will be the largest piece I've made so far. I’m also very curious to see how closely it will resemble the original image. In the future, I’d like to experiment with different genres, but there's that saying, ""Man proposes but God disposes." We’ll see what comes of these plans.

I uploaded a few pictures to the blog that I created, mainly fantasy images inspired by the World of Warcraft game. Yes, I really like elves—no wonder my favorite character is Drizzt Do'Urden from the Dungeons & Dragons world, created by R.A. Salvatore. Fantasy is my favorite genre, where magic exists, many different races live together in a world, and magical creatures like dragons reside. Fantasy is a spectacular fairytale world where only your imagination can set the limit, and sometimes it’s great to escape our fixed world and dive into this one. 

https://beyondtheveil2017.blogspot.com/p/my-pictures.html

When I was a little girl, around 3 years old, my stepfather started entertaining me with "magic tricks" to get closer to me, as my parents had divorced. Back then, I didn’t know they were tricks, and I truly believed we had magical powers. It felt so empowering to believe that I had some kind of power and could make things disappear or manifest if I concentrated hard enough, whether it was a playing card or a coin. That was my passion back then—doing magic and becoming better at it. At that time, I believed the world was magical, like the way light shines through a prism.

When my dad took me to his new family, my stepmother had to "play magic" with me too, and she really didn’t like it. One day, the playing cards didn’t disappear when I focused hard on making them vanish. No matter how much I tried, it didn’t work. "Maybe I’m the problem, I’m not concentrating hard enough." My stepmother got fed up with the game and explained that I didn’t have any "magical powers" because they had always been the ones making things disappear and putting them back in place. It felt like a slap in the face—my childlike nature and belief shattered that day, and the world turned gray before my eyes. "So this is how the world works, people have no power..." I thought, and from that day on, I never played "magic tricks" or thought about it again.

But did my family and this world manage to erase that desire from me? No… because I dreamed. In a dream, I was practicing with a friend in a huge cobblestone street, capturing energies, and we even reshaped some of the street's stones, which the city’s residents were not very happy about. Later, I was able to "ride" the wind currents, like when we float on the currents of salty water in this world, and let the wind carry me. Later, I found fantasy books where wizards existed, capable of working with elemental energies, druids who could transform into any animal, and where dragons, griffins, and other mythical creatures lived. I never believed the dragons were greedy, lazy, destructive, or foolish creatures. In fact, I admired them, and deep down, I felt and knew that they weren’t like what this world said about them. Dreams, fantasy books, and games prevented this matrix from completely turning me gray and into a lifeless robot figure.

Later, I fell in love with a series called Heroes, where people got supernatural abilities, such as telepathy, telekinesis, self-healing, precognition, and manipulating the space-time continuum, among others. Then came Star Wars, and I wanted to be a Jedi. We can call it magic or abilities, but deep down, I believed and longed for these powers as if they belonged to me or as if I had them "once upon a time," making the world complete and exciting.

In reality, these so-called supernatural abilities are innate to us, but due to programming and blockages, they fade and become forgotten. However, as we clear, reprogram ourselves, and connecting back to our core essence they return. Many people are already using these abilities, such as clairvoyance, clairaudience, energy reading, future sight, remote viewing, dreaming, etc., all of which are exciting discoveries and help us navigate this world, heal it, and bring new things here. But how do we develop these abilities? Meditation, stillness, and practice help a lot, especially if we are truly serious and our intentions are clear regarding their use.

The purpose of this post is to say that if you have or will have a young child, let them stay in that rainbow-colored little warm bubble because they are still connected with their soul, their inner child, and their abilities. Don’t kill their dreams, their childhood, with the bittersweet adult view of life, responsibilities and your own projected traumas and hurt. Young children still have their third eye open and very empath—they see and feel the energies, what we cannot and may know things we've long forgotten. Conditioning and gaslighting make them "average," so they can fit into the matrix box. To them, this place is magical, exiting, full of unlimited possibilities and potential. Don’t take away their sweet childhood dreams, because they will pay a high price for it later. These new generation children are completely different from those before, and I believe that with good guidance and protection, they are capable of great things if we let them. The old matrix has run its course, and with the new one, we must dare to dream, do, and build together. Because who wouldn’t want a fantasy utopian life? That’s what the New Age is about—returning to ourselves, living and being in harmony with nature and others. 

I wish for everybody a very good weekend and blessed March! 

Weekend Vibezz - 21.02.2025

Good day to everyone :) This week has been energetically quite intense, which not only burdened our physical bodies but also our nervous systems, and many physical, mental, and emotional symptoms have been felt. The recalibration and cleansing continue, not only with us humans but also with the Earth. This week, when I went for a walk and looked at nature, one word came to my mind - change. Nature changes cyclically, life is a series of changes, just like with us humans. We change a lot day by day and month by month, even if our minds don't see the changes, as it perceives that nothing is happening. But something is always happening, it just needs a shift in focus.

Today's weather is not like it was years ago. Since I've been living here in Austria, I don't remember a winter being as cold, frosty, and dry as this one. As I talk to people from different parts of the world, they all report that the usual seasons are now different, and they are experiencing things they've never experienced before. I feel sorry for the children now, as they couldn't build snowmen or go sledding this winter season.

The drama on the world stage continues. It seems to me that since Trump won the election, a domino effect has started, because the skeletons that were previously hidden in the closet are now starting to fall out, and the media is reporting on it. I think this is a good direction toward disclosure, something that was once just conspiracy theory, and the unveiling of the Cabal and its previous "activities" to humanity.

A video from Benjamin Fulford appeared, where he reports that the Cabal wants to take him out, and he also talks about the Japanese police and who the real members of the Japanese government are. You can watch it here - with English subtitles:

https://benjaminfulford.net/emergency-broadcast/

This is not the first time they've tried to silence Fulford, as he releases a lot of information about the Khazarian mafia and world news, which the media presents in a completely different way. Regarding the Japanese government, I had a conversation with an old Japanese friend years ago, and he also said the same thing - that it's actually not the Japanese who are running the government, but China."

The bottom line, which I’ve mentioned before, is that the governments of different countries serve foreign and private interests, not the people of their own country, who actually voted them in. In Austria, there is still no legitimate government since last year's election because the various parties couldn’t agree on a coalition, so maybe there will be another election, or the parties will pull themselves together and finally focus on the interests of Austrian citizens instead of fighting over the spoils of power. Until then, the economy and people's welfare are declining, inflation and prices are rising, and more and more large companies - workplaces - are going bankrupt. The iconic Austrian souvenir chocolate, Mozart Kugel, also went bankrupt last year (it was in foreign hands), so the production of this sweet has come to an end.

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This week's topic is for those who feel left behind in life, and this is something that came up again during my "meltdown" this week. Some call it a midlife crisis, others call it burnout, but the feeling is the same. The feeling that you’re a supporting character on the stage of life, and you're dragging behind, because at your age, you're not where others are, you haven’t hit those milestones yet. But why do we think this way? In this matrix society, we've created an achievement process, which we call the "order of life," but it’s really a generational programming. I remember when I used to talk to my parents about life and they more or less explained how it’s supposed to go. You’re born, you're a child, you finish school, get a profession, go to work, earn money, get married, have a home, have children, work, retire, and then you die. Even then, I thought, “Is that it? Is that life?!” It seemed so bleak, cold, and where am I in all this? I'm going through the motions in this big world, fulfilling my “duties” and then eventually dying. Where is the happiness, the love of life, the miracles, the playfulness, and the exploration that we saw life as when we were kids? I didn’t see my parents or the people around me as happy, fulfilled, content, or peaceful. I even used to tell my parents that I didn’t want to grow up, I didn’t want to be so “tired, worn out, and unhappy.” They told me I couldn’t be a child forever, that I would eventually understand what it was like to be an adult. My stepfather believed that as a woman, I would find fulfilment in raising children, that would be my source of happiness, because that’s my primary task... do you think I agreed with him? Me, as a woman, could only fulfil myself through motherhood? Then where’s the "I" in this game as an individual? To be honest, my worldview clashed with my family’s many times, as I was the eternal rebel, never satisfied with how things were.

I saw children as beings in rainbow colors, and adults were gray, having lost their colors, that inner prism. I didn’t want to be like that, but as I moved through life’s ups and downs, the lens through which I saw life and myself faded, the grayness settled in, and I understood why I saw adults the way I did. All those lessons, struggles, the “slaps” from life, and the programming, like a black mass, attaches itself to this inner lens through which we view life, and we slowly move away from that inner child, from our soul.

We all have desires, this inner driving force that gives us the strength to get up in the morning and get through the day. It’s like the carrot on the stick, being waved in front of us, and we run a marathon trying to reach it. But often the "divine timing" is so far away that we give up halfway. This is why we feel like we’re falling behind. But are we really lagging in life, or is it just a mental perspective?

Most of the suffering comes from comparing our lives with others’. The neighbour's garden always seems greener. I know this because when someone is at a low point or stops for a moment, they do this, just like I do. Then there are societal and family expectations, pressure, etc. Here we are in our 30s or 40s even 50s and when you look at someone else's life and then your own, you realize that you haven’t achieved anything. You don’t have a career, you don’t have savings in your bank account, you haven’t found your soulmate yet, there’s no family, no kids, no own home, etc., while someone else in their 20s or 30s seems to have unlocked everything. Naturally, we feel like a failure, and we start looking for the fault in ourselves. You ask yourself why and how they managed to make it through, and why you haven’t. Even though you worked for it, you worked hard, and yet the long-awaited result hasn’t come, the breakthrough, the success, your wish fulfilment.

In reality, we don’t know the path our soul has planned for us. The ego has a rigid idea about what, how, and when it wants, and constantly controls and fights for these things, yet when they don’t happen, we can be very hard on ourselves. We may feel like the Universe is simply ignoring our wishes, our desires, that it keeps putting obstacles in our way, and we don’t understand why. Endless lessons from life. Naturally, we become discouraged and feel like we’ve fallen behind.

Each person’s journey in life is unique, and I believe everyone is where they’re supposed to be...but it is so hard to accept. Late bloomers, it’s not shameful if you haven’t found yourself yet, if you haven’t hit the matrix’s life achievements, or if your deepest desires haven’t manifested yet. A big hug to you, and stay strong. Flow with life, let life - your path unfold as should be, take the lessons and relax...I know it´s easier said than done, I´m in it, and I know that our ego is very goal oriented, while our soul is more the experience of journey oriented...we are impatient, we want, we do and do...while life is not a rush game. 

Here’s a video that might better summarize what I wanted to say, and offer comfort if you feel this way, in any area of your life...for me gave. Nothing is wrong with you...just the programming and our mind which is a powerful tool but we overthink a lot...but this is another topics. 

▬ Chapters ▬

  00:00 you're not behind in life 

00:33 beautiful day in nature 

01:03 lessons from rush hour 

05:41 take the scenic route 

09:32 slow down. the timeline doesn't exist 

13:06 are you living for you or someone else? 

17:22 the joy in falling behind in life 

20:20 the journey IS the destination 

25:12 this is your life

  30:07 guest star: the squirrel 

30:35 Reclaim your time. 

33:24 walk to fly 

36:24 silence the inner colonizer and save your life

  43:53 trust your joy. trust your own timeline. 

49:36 live. that's the whole point. 

52:00 love yourself 

52:43 "late bloomer"

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One of my favorite cartoon is Mulan, and it really touched my heart when Mulan’s father tried to comfort his daughter under the cherry trees. "My, my, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look! This one's late. But I'll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all."

I end this post here with a beautiful music again from Schiller - Hochland. 

Life is a symphony.

Have a nice weekend and a brand new week :)

Weekend Vibezz - 14.02.2025

 

I'm back, feeling better every day, but still not 100%. I hope you are well. 

Today's weekend vibezz fell on February 14th, Valentine's Day. You can love or hate this commercial holiday, the shops are full of heart-shaped gifts, the flower shops and chocolate business is booming, as are wellness hotel and restaurant reservations. But this "holiday" is not only for lovers, but also for friendships. In many countries, friendships are also celebrated on this day - so I wish all my readers a Happy Heart's Day. 

I think you've noticed a few changes to the blog, and I hope you like the new design. As I mentioned in my post last week, I've been enjoying "playing around" with AI lately. I started generating images primarily to create something unique for my cross-stitch hobby. I'm currently experimenting with how well images can be transferred into stitched images. But since I've created quite a few good images that I like, I thought I'd share them than to sit on it and hold it back. I've come up with a few favourites that are dear to my heart, and I'd like to implement them in cross-stitch.

 I've always wanted to have some "my own creation" for my blog and my hobby, and now this little wish has finally come true. A few months ago I wanted a completely different concept, but while I was tossing and turning in bed sick in the evenings, this idea came to me. The image had been ready since weeks, but at the time I didn't know what I needed it for. With the previous image, I felt that it was "outdated", no longer relevant. I'm not saying that there aren't armadas of spaceships around Earth and our solar system, but that the focus is completely different now. 

Those we have been waiting for are already here, doing their job, as are we, some this way, some that way. The focus is now more on Mother Earth, and the Goddess energy, because in these turbulent times, kindness, grace, love, nurturing and soft energies are very important, so that we do not lose ourselves in the chaos outside and inside, because it is very easy to spiral into low frequency mode, due to external changes, internal purges and constant mind chat. 

We have been operating with masculine energies for so long, especially us women, that we have forgotten what it is like to surround ourselves, the world with real, pure, feminine energies. To express ourselves in whatever word, deed, hobby, and to truly embrace ourselves with all our aspects, requires great courage, as a trauma arose in many people when they exposed their inner world to the world and received nothing in return but rejection, coldness, criticism, hurt and misunderstanding. Perhaps this is why depression has become a common disease, as we suppress who we are within ourselves, we compromise in order to receive acceptance from the majority in return. Humans has always lived in families, tribes, we are actually a social being, and in today's world, loneliness is what eats a person from the inside. Even though there are 8 billion of people on Earth, even though we are surrounded by so many people, we still feel alone.

We want to fit in, get acceptance, understood, seen so much that we often compromise for it, dim our light, going with the mainstream flow, going after what is "normal", "allowed", because who wants to be socially excluded. No matter how much we try to fit into the box that this society has generated, some part of our body always peeks out of it. We have to realize that we were not born to the size of a "normal matrix box". Our task is to embrace our uniqueness, stand strong in it, stand out, even if the tornado of chaos of the world sucks us in, we still remain true to our path, our soul and our tasks. Each and every soul has brought something unique to this planet and without it this common symphony would not be complete.

I also wanted to "fit in" but no matter how many times I tried I stood out from the crowd. But more than that I always wanted to belong somewhere. During a meditation I had a short vision, about this thought. I saw humanity walking en masse and between every 10-20 people there was a tall slim alien figure, completely standing out from the crowd. The placement of these outstanding figures was perfectly arranged. The people didn't notice us, but they was calm as they marched, and we were, smiling and walking with them, and we saw each other.

As the spiritual community calls "us" - lightworkers, lightwarriors (I not really like these names to be honest), we often find ourselves "isolated" from each other and there are hardly any people in our immediate environment who resonate with us, are on the same wavelength, or understand us. Many of us grew up being the "black sheep" of the family, because very often - which is also our task - we stand out - we break with the unhealthy family dynamics. It's not an easy task to be a light, a way shower, healer, a seer, an empath, but even the most beautiful diamonds or lotuses blossom into perfection under difficult circumstances. 

What struck me is that you have to go through what you are going through in order to understand, heal, and show the way to others who are going through the same thing. Because at that time you have a natural compassion, patience, and understanding about the thing - the event, and you can give advice, attention, truths, healing, and wisdom to others, because you have already walked that path. 

Now I'm going to share my story with you, especially if you want to create something and not make the same mistake I did back then.

It all started in elementary school when my favourite Hungarian teacher gave us an assignment to write an essay in class, which could be anything. I've never had a problem with my imagination since I was a child, and that was the first time I wrote down a vision of mine. Back then, I had no inhibitions or fears about writing down what was inside me. The story in short: something happened in the world, the sky is grey, smoky, our street and our house was in ruins and I was sitting alone on the ruins, crying, but suddenly a spaceship descended from the sky and then landed on the street close to me. A handsome young man stepped out of it, I recognized him it was Luke Skywalker and he told me what had happened to our world and that he had come to take me to safety. 

My teacher really loved it, he read it to the others and my class laughed. That's when I first felt embarrassment and a bit shame about my inner world and fantasy. This teacher even included my short fantasy story in the school newspaper. He was the one who encouraged me to write. Then not only my class, but the whole school knew that my crush was Luke from Star Wars... and now you too.

I started writing, a book, but also short stories. I gave it to my mother to read, and I watched every emotion on her face, what came out of it - crying, laughing, indifference? I started to depend on outside opinions, reactions and validations. 

My mother's and my friends opinion and appreciation were no longer enough, and then I came across a writer on the internet (I had never heard of him before) on whose page you could upload your short story and he would give you his opinion, help you correct mistakes, and give you advice. Many people took advantage of the opportunity and I wanted to try it myself.

I wrote a very dark short story, inspired by my friend´s dark poem, about a new-born baby who was thrown away, who is found by a homeless person with one leg and taken to a nearby hospital to be saved. Even then, I was sensitive to social issues, and with this short story I wanted to draw attention to abandoned new-borns babies issue. I uploaded it to the website and within a few days the "expert opinion" was published, which caused me to stop writing for years - decades. The criticism I received was very negative, the stylistic errors I not took on my heart, I thought it was constructive criticism, but what broke me was that they questioned, nullified my imagination, my voice, my message. My writing is not viable - there is no such thing, shit this and that etc. The worst thing is that at least 20 people criticized my short story negatively and not a single person stood up for me or saw good in it. Unfortunately, many unwanted babies are abandoned in the world, not even given a chance to live, and why shouldn't a kind-hearted homeless person be the one to give it a chance? This writer was able to extinguish my passion for a long time except my fantasy just I not shared with nobody what´s in me anymore...as if the flame that burned inside me had been blown out. And why? Because I naively placed him above myself, since he was a recognized author with a few accolades, and I gave my power away to him and the other new writers. 

External validity and acceptance were too important to me, so much that I started not trusting myself, what I had to say especially it founded to deaf ear. The breakthrough came when there was an opportunity, a competition at a book publisher, where you could apply with your manuscript and the jury would publish the 3 best stories in book form. I wrote day and night, besides school, to finish my book, which I started in elementary school. I sent it, waited months, hoped, prayed, wished, this was my dream back then. 

Then I broke down again. I was not the chosen one. But I didn't give up so easily, I sent my manuscript to all book publishers and was disappointed again, because they either didn't even wrote to me back or rejected me. The only publisher who talked to me was self-publishing, where I would have had to raise the money for it. My parents couldn't help me because of our financial situation, so I had to turn down this only option, since there was no Amazon or e-books or anything else at that time. I was devastated, the flickering light had finally gone out. I thought the problem was with me, or that there really was no buyer for my imagination. Nobody wanted to read about other dimensional world who protecting ours. A few years later, when I felt like writing again, it simply didn't work, I no longer felt the same way I did then, like you want to light a wet match. 

I expressed my opinions about things to my family and friends, but I didn't dare to write them down to people I didn't know, especially in the internet because I was still in pain from all the negative criticism, laugh and rejection. I saw in many comments that people were so capable of fighting and bite each other's throat over differences of opinion that I didn't want this kind of experience. I covered myself up by saying that others before me had already written the same thoughts what I wanted to say about things, and they do much better than I ever would.

Then I started this blog, and then over the years I tried to write again, to test the waters. That was a little breakthrough, as I watched people in a few comment sections on Facebook, for example, and I came to the conclusion that if these "ignorant" people can use any kind of expression about themself and their opinions themselves in any form be it rude, negative, selfish etc, then why can't I? So I started writing some very short posts, and through many years I finally here, where I write about things, share my opinion and express myself. It´s a long journey. 

A few years ago, when I started making my first cross-stitch picture, I felt something like I did when I wrote as a kid. I was surprised that I had so much patience and perseverance to spend months making each picture and already starting a new one after. My passion came back, I found joy in the hobby, that I can create something by hand, with earthly materials, and I am grateful that I can do it. Then I told myself - Don't let anyone take that away from you again - no matter what anyone says or does. I love what I do, I love creating and I love looking at my finished pictures, and I want the future owner to find joy in them as much as I do. 

It took a long time to heal, embrace the lesson what I learned, so that I can give to you. If you have a passion, a hobby, don't let other people take away those. Don't give your power away to others. Empower yourself. Trust yourself. Don't let external opinions and validations or events define you and your worth. Not every hobby is fiery passionate, but there are those that bring you peace, calm, or healing.

I also created a new page on the blog where I will upload my and AI's brainchild. If you like any of them, you can use them but please credit me back or my blog. Thank you :) http://beyondtheveil2017.blogspot.com/p/my-pictures.html

That's all I have for today, and to close, some music, again from Schiller.

Have a nice weekend and have a great new week :)

Weekend Vibezz - 07.02.2025

Good morning, welcome to February. Energies are constantly flowing, cleansing, recalibrating us and planet Earth. Tectonic plates are restless, there are more earthquakes, volcanic activity and unusual weather. We have unusually more frosty periods, dry and hardly any snow this winter season. These unusual weather anomalies are a wake-up call for the average person, often a topic of conversation and small talk but these people blame global warming due to the influence of the media. Unfortunately, chemtrail airplanes have also been active lately, but somehow they are not yet noticed and weather manipulation has not received much attention in the media and by people. 

There is a lot of drama in the outside world, especially since Trump was elected and the media is buzzing about his actions. In Europe there is a lot of movement and a strong shift to the far right in politics, a result of the force migration. The new trend in Hungary is bomb threats in schools with Islamist overtones. In Europe the cabal is still using the well-proven divide and rule system and wants to further escalate the Muslim and Christian conflicts and the contrast between migrant and European people. Their other attempt is to create fear about new viruses through TV broadcasts and paid doctors. 

The new Cobra Phoenix workshop notes have been posted on my blog, which contains quite a bit of new information compared to previous workshops.

https://beyondtheveil2017.blogspot.com/2025/02/cobra-2025-portal-workshop-in-phoenix.html

Also added to the Useful stuff page are the Emerald meditation and Remember your star origin meditation too. I will update the latter with a guided meditation as well.

https://beyondtheveil2017.blogspot.com/p/useful-staff.html

I've been working a lot on my new cross-stitch project lately, I'm really curious to see what the end result will be, since this is my first completely independent project. In addition, I've been experimenting with AI image generation software with varying degrees of success. I thought I'd share a few images that I've had generated in these posts. The images often go wrong, because AI likes to put extra limbs on people, or ignore the details that I consider important.

There are many image generators, but I would like to highlight my favorite, in case anyone else likes to create images, because often a picture says more than words.

I use Nightcafe, where you can choose from several mods and options, and there is a completely free, credit and pro option for image generation. The free image generation...let's leave it...but every day there is an opportunity for 5 free credits, and you can collect more, with which we can use better mods and get very good results. Of course, the best ones are the pro mods, but the monthly subscription is wallet friendly. What I really like here is that you can delete bad pictures, keep them private, and publish them if you want. There are a lot of creative and very good pictures being made here, I like to look at and marvel at other people's work.

Here is a picture of the Pleiadeans. I won't post the best one until the project is finished but similar like this. 

The other one I use is Leonardo AI. There is also a free and paid option here. Here you can generate more complex prompts, but here the AI ​​makes the most mistakes with extra limbs etc. This site is more complex than the previous one, with more extras, so I'm just experimenting with it, but unfortunately the success rate is very low for me - almost randomly 2-3 out of 100 pictures. For free members, it generates 4 pictures and unfortunately these are all public, if the picture is good or not. Only paid members can delete pictures and go to private mode. Every day there we get free credit and can use it. I think here too with paid membership you can make much better pictures. What is really good here are the Anime pictures. I also had images generated about the Pleiadeans here and it turned out to be a complete disaster... I mean, I almost fell off my chair laughing - Sorry Pleiadeans. 

But here are some anime and photo pictures, of a meeting on a spaceship... but it could also be an underground station. I guess they're not too happy about the many anomalies and the situation on Earth.

If anyone knows of a really good and free image generator, I would really appreciate it if you could share it in the comments.

This week I was in a bit of a nostalgic mood, as I came across an old favorite musician of mine - Schiller. So as a post ending music I brought some chill music in the form of a symphony orchestra and electronic music. The title is Nachtflug. Anyway, lately I've been listening to almost only chill music and not so much focus on the outer world. Unfortunately, this post is now short, but that's it for now.

Have a nice weekend and a very good start of the week :) 

Weekend Vibezz - 31.01.2025

It's the last day of the month, and tomorrow we can welcome the energies of February. For those interested in astrology, I've put up a few posts about how the energies will change with these new planetary positions. Pam Gregory's posts and videos are always really good, I love reading those from Natalia Alba and Alex Myles. 

I also wish you a Happy New Year, as it was the Chinese Lunar New Year and we have entered the Year of the Snake.

Recently I found several posts about what we are all looking for - happiness. If you ask a person what they want, in their first 3 wishes include happiness besides health and money. We all want to be happy in all areas of life, be it relationships, friendships, work, family, harmonious coexistence, laughter, conversation, etc. The question is how to achieve all this.

In this matrix, we have been taught completely in reverse what happiness is and how to get it. In this consumer society, where quantity overrides quality, they serve quick instant gratification with consumerism, i.e. buy everything your eyes and mouth desire, giving you a pleasant dopamine boost, and when the short effect has passed, then buy yourself something else that can make you happy.

Relationships and friendships have also switched to such a shallow mode - they have simply switched to a consumer consumption model. We have started using each other as a product, which if it breaks or problems arise, we replace it with a better and new version, since this material matrix is ​​built on illusions - always buy the newer, the shinier, the designer product, simply the trend. Trends come and go - they are short-lived - today a new iPhone, tomorrow Dubai chocolate, and the next day something completely different, and the average person, in order to be "happier" and to be an "accepted" member of the social matrix, just buys, consumes, and lives their life in this loop.

If we were to ask these people if they are actually happy and get an honest answer, we would be surprised, because when they consume anything, they only feel a momentary happiness, then they become empty again and to make this void disappear, they again fall on another dose of happiness pill, which the next thing or person will cause them.

Our happiness has started to depend on external things and people. We look for happiness from outside. We will be happy if we fall in love with a person, if we have a good job, if we become successful and got recognition, if we get this or that. We become dependent on the external. We chase these things. We always project happiness into the future, or we dwell in the past, that we were happy then and there. But in this way we miss the present moment. After all, the only thing we have is the present moment. We never know when these moments will end. In fact, we do not live our lives in the present moment, because we spend it either in the past or in the future, that is, in our heads.

When we get it, we will be above the clouds in happiness for a while, for hours, for days, and then we will sink back to that "meh" average line. Why? Because it simply becomes habitual, because maybe we didn't even desire it in our soul. The desires and satisfaction of the mind do not last long, but if the desires of our soul are fulfilled, we can achieve a lasting longer feeling of happiness from within, but this is also destroyed by the mind - the ego. If we were to ask the ego what the meaning of life is, we would get a long complicated monologue and if the answer were that it is life itself, then the ego would answer "is that all?, there must be more". We overcomplicate everything, we turn it upside down... because we have forgotten what is important to us and what gives us true happiness.

In fact, we are now learning, being taught - we are remembering again by the energies - God - Soul - that everything we look for outside is here inside. The love, happiness, our worth, peace, harmony, abundance, health that we chase outside, are actually all there inside us. It's just that the illusion and the multitude of programs from birth are so great that we have forgotten and we look for it from outside throughout our lives. It sounds cliché, but only as long as you are co-dependent on other people and material things and until you have experienced it from within.

I know, because I am also going through this process - so that my "happiness - peace - value - love" does not depend on other people and external things. I looked for it from outside and got a lot of disappointment and hurt, I cried a lot because of it, you could say I was in victim mode for a long time, and I had to say loudly and firmly - "It´s enough" and recharge myself from within, from my own "internal" relationships.

Does it work? Yes, but I have to constantly check my thoughts, bring myself back to the present moment, look at things from a different perspective, let go of control and not knowing the end result instead be peace in the process and try to flow. I have to trust and believe that everything is for me and not against me. Pause moments help a lot, when I just be and do nothing for a few minutes.

We need to learn to live in the present moment again, to be grateful for everything we have, because we make the mistake of taking everything for granted. Simplicity - be grateful and happy for the tiniest thing as clean water, a place where we can be, the sunshine, our beautiful blue sky, the birds singing, having clothes, food, air for breathing, earth under our feet, stars in the evening sky... because who knows how long we will see these. 

This is a process, we have to learn to sit with ourselves without doing anything, we have to learn to dance with the cosmic energies again and flow with life... that's why we are here. We have experienced the "darkness" and the "hell" and as a contrast we can appreciate the "heaven on Earth" i.e. the Golden Age. We know, we have experienced what it is like to live in the matrix and now we are changing it to how we want to exist in the next present moment.

" We are conditioned to believe that happiness is something external that can be achieved through material possessions, status, or external validation. From a young age, we are bombarded with messages from advertisements, media, and even societal norms that suggest our worth and contentment are tied to what we own or how we are perceived by others. This mindset often leads us to constantly chase after the next big thing, the next promotion, or the next rend, believing that these accomplishments or possessions will finally bring us the satisfaction we desire. 

However, many people find that even after acquiring these external markers of success, a lingering sense of dissatisfaction remains. This is because true happiness often comes from within and is based on intangible aspects, such as self-acceptance, meaning relationships, personal growth, and a sense of purpose. It is about finding contentment in the present moment, practicing gratitude for what we have, and cultivating a mindset that embraces simplicity and mindfulness.  

To break free from the cycle of wanting more, it can be helpful to reflect on what truly brings us joy and fulfilment. This might involve re-evaluating our priorities, letting go of societal pressures, and focusing on experiences and connections that resonate with tour authentic selves. 

Redefine happiness on your own terms."

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The closing song of this post will be unusual. The Hungarian Majka's song "Csurran, csöppen" caused a lot of buzz in Hungary, which is actually about corruption and is outspoken...plus, it's a pretty catchy song. It has over 10 million views in two weeks and the Hungarian government didn't like it (too much truth bomb), but the Hungarian people did. 

"The president of a fictional country gives an interview, but a waiter gives him a truth serum before and the truth is revealed. After the interview, the crew members all tragically suddenly fall out of a hospital window, but one of them survives and then falls out the window again. Another crew member defected to a distant country. The day after the interview, the president imposes a total dictatorship."

There is a very good English translation of this song - you can check it out here: 

https://lyricstranslate.com/en/majka-csurran-cseppen-english

"So all we had to do was get through the elections

And think of some good slogan again

We needed something to make them scared

Something complicated that they can't understand

We were careful with the jews, because there's lots of them

And they stand on the good side of the money tap..

Amnesty for the friends of friends!

And if you pay a few journalist out of your pocket

Those eager dickheads will write down anything!"

"I can survive everything!

The laws are written on me!"

I wish you a good weekend and an even better new week :)

Weekend Vibezz - 24.01.2025

Hello, I hope everyone is having a "good" January.

Mine is too, except for a few days when "hurts" come to the surface and my ego throws a tantrum. On a human level, there are experiences that are not pleasant, especially if we only see from one perspective and we don't see the bigger picture and where it leads. There are moments when we question the "meaning" of this or that, does it lead somewhere, is what I'm doing enough, am I doing it right, is my work helping others, and where is my success?

I'll tell you, I've been honestly thinking this week about whether what I'm doing actually has "meaning", what I'm sharing, writing down my own thoughts and points of view, does it help, does it add "something" to the common, and why I mostly feel unsupported, left out of the cold by people. I know these are all my "hurts", shadow self blah blah, but these feelings so real. An experience and the thoughts and feelings it generates are just as real and believable, even if they are not true. Our ego only sees a small slice of life, not know what´s behind the scene, always think the worst case scenario, generates a story during an experience, and, stuck in the past, projects the same experience onto the present and the future.

There are situations - quite a few - when we have no control over what happens, who reacts how and what, and what they do or don't do. In such cases, the best way to maintain our peace of mind is through acceptance and control of our own reactions and actions. But this is often difficult when we get carried away by emotions. Human emotions range across a very wide range, from frustrating anger, through depression, through peace to joy. Many times, several emotions run through us at the same time or one after the other, and in such cases we tend to wonder if we are actually "normal". Many people cannot cope with the intense feelings that arise after an event and suppress them, but in fact the feelings remain there and accumulate. There are trigger points when these suppressed feelings come to the surface, but there are also cases when we suppress them with certain physical substances and in many cases disconnecting from our emotions. This is the worst and unfortunately a lot of people suffer from this. The energies that are coming in are all taking these out of us, they are also pressing on our trigger points, because we can't go where we need to go with a big package. This is a challenging process, as many people don't know what is happening and why, and it is easy to get lost in the thoughts and stories generated by the mind.

The other thing we do not do ourselves any good is to compare ourselves to others. This usually remains with us from childhood, as many of our parents often or constantly compared us with other children, even comparing the level of development the babies with others - "the grass next door is always greener", and an internal harsh criticism and the trauma of "I am not good enough" develop within us. We can say that this is one of the basic programs in many of us, as many star seeds - light workers etc - acting differently since childhood - the black sheep of the family - and we have received so much hurt for this that we need so much inner work to delete these programs. The more we wanted to fit in with the crowd, the more we stood out from the crowd and we always get caught, since we are all unique, with unique light codes, missions, paths and experiences, personalities and skills. This comparison remains in adulthood and a lot of work needs to be done internally to free ourselves from these programs.

The other common program is self-worth and self-esteem, which they are constantly trying to pull down. We don't really know how valuable we are, we weren't taught that, only that if you have this and that in the physical world, then you are valuable. In this materialistic world, you are valuable if you have graduated from school - university, have a good job, have money - a house - a car - newest cell phone - wear designer clothes - have a family, etc. In fact, this is not true. A distorted egoistic material worldview of a person's value and this is the matrix where human value is measured in numbers. After all, we are not defined by what we have accumulated in the material world, but by the spirit itself. We are valuable even if we do nothing in the world. But this is not something to know in theory, this must be felt and known from within.

Related to this, I recently watched the anime series Beastars, the essence of which is that carnivores and herbivores live in a society. These creatures have the instinct of hunter and prey, desire and fear. No matter how hard these animals try to suppress the instinct, the ancient program, they can't. Legoshi, the gray wolf, is the main character, who tries to suppress this instinct, since his love is a bunny, and want to protect and friends with the herbivores animals, and during his training he realizes that all life is valuable - life itself is valuable, no matter how small or big. But you can't go against the laws of life - its cycle. There were some interesting thoughts in this anime.

We tend to see ourselves, our work, our lives through a very narrow lens and often external events break our self-esteem. But in reality these events show us that we see ourselves badly. We give others respect, compassion, love, care, but in reality we give ourselves little and with a lot of harsh self-criticism. There was a good advice that I also try to take and recommend further, that you should treat yourself like a small child or your best friend.

I would say that I was my own worst enemy in terms of criticism. It wasn't hard, because I received a lot of negative criticism from a very young age in many areas of life and was raised to do the tasks perfectly. I have somewhat recovered in this area, because my writing or anything I do is anything but not perfect. I call it nowadays Imperfectly perfect - it´s okay :) My old self wouldn't have published a single article or cross-stitch picture or anything, because it's not perfect in terms of internal criticism.

The many external criticisms taught me that you can constantly correct yourself, to meet the expectations of others, thus losing yourself, or you can continue to live - think - dress - do what you do, the way you do, because that's how you feel good inside, preserving your individuality. The first way is easy, but you will realize sooner or later that you will never be "accepted" completely, and you will never meet all expectations, because they simply place unrealistic expectations on you. And if you constantly meet external expectations and others, you will lose yourself, and at some point you will no longer know who you really are among the many programs. I tried to change a little in terms of integration, but after a week in a single moment a sudden realization hit me hard that this is not me. This quality that they wanted to force on me doesn't come from within, it's someone else's quality that they wish I had.

The other way is hard, like climbing mountains blindfolded and being constantly hit with a stick...maybe that's why I became defensive and building walls but I try to be open too. But every criticism and judgment is like a stab in the heart... if we allow it. We project our own expectations, hurts and insecurities onto another person because we arrogantly think that our way of doing things and liking is the only way, and so maybe we accept that other person. Maybe that's why we criticize as humans...this is where acceptance comes into play.

Right now, everyone is playing a character, and when the curtain of our lives comes down, we finish the game of life, we take off this mask and we are again our soul self. We will never be the character we are playing right now, because a new game requires a new player. So accept this character you are playing, because it is temporary, love it, work with it, accept it, heal it, correct it if you don´t like something - not because of others, just because of you - because this is what you have chosen for this journey.

That's it for now.

The media is currently in a frenzy over Trump's new laws, it's good to see he's not wasting his time. The withdrawal from the WHO has stirred up a lot of dust, which would be good if they were also withdrawn in Europe. The latest, and one that will stir up a lot of standing water, is the declassification of the Kennedy assassination files. How much of this will actually become true and under what circumstances, well, we'll see.

This post fits perfectly - Titanium by David Guetta..and of course it´s a remix 😅

and this post it´s okay...not perfect...imperfectly perfect in this moment 😸

Have a nice weekend and a good week ahead :)