"You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me." Morpheus - Matrix
This is my last post for this so-called year 2025… if we are even calling it 2025 at all, because in this world it’s worth questioning everything. After all, we know that calendars have been changed multiple times since the beginning of human timekeeping, and I am certain that our history is full of holes.
Regardless of the year or the calendar, this year was not an easy one. Whether you wanted it or not, change happened — from the outside or from within. It was a time of lessons, aha moments, realizations, transformation, closures, shedding an old life and an old self — a molting period. According to the Chinese, it was the Year of the Snake.
Every ending is followed by a new beginning, just as nature follows its own cycles, life its own rhythm. And since we are part of life, these cycles inevitably appear in our own human lives as well. Think about who you were, what you were like, and where you were years ago — and where you stand now. How much you have experienced on life’s roller coaster, and yet you are still here. Probably battered by storms, like most of us, but you are healing, moving forward on your path, and finally beginning to reclaim your power, to get to know your true self.
How are the last few months of the year going for everyone?
To be honest, November has been quite intense and eventful for me so far, both internally and externally. If I remember correctly — it feels like it was months ago — there were 4–5 X-class solar flares, and each one brought a different shadow layer to the surface for me. Which isn’t surprising, since we were in Scorpio season, and that energy is always transformative. It’s the sign that deep-dives into the subconscious, the unseen; the sign that descends into the depths, battles its demons, and brings to the surface things that have been suppressed or hiding within us. No wonder this is the time filled with revelations and the beginning of the death-and-rebirth cycle within and around us.
The first X-class flare was actually quite positive for me — I felt satisfied with my life, myself, and my work. I was surprised, because whenever I feel even a little bit happy or content, something almost always happens that knocks me out of it. I really wished that feeling could last longer than a day. The next day there was another flare, and that one brought up a new layer of self-worth and self-esteem issues — not being chosen. Yes, you read that right. Even though I’m “active” on the internet, I still have plenty of issues related to self-worth… good old past-life stuff mixed with childhood traumas I’ve been carrying around and trying to heal for a while now. And then — boom — another layer rose to the surface.
This is just a little mini update to say I'm alive – but unfortunately, the blog has taken a backseat for a while now, and it’ll probably stay on the backburner for a bit longer.
I’ve started a new project alongside my existing cross-stitching, and now I’m juggling the two, trying to keep both moving forward in their own way.
My brother has been suggesting for years that I start a new YouTube channel where I read bedtime stories aloud.
Where did he get that idea?
I assume it goes back to our childhood when we shared a room and the Harry Potter craze hit. He got the first book as a gift, and since he wasn’t much of a reader but was curious about the story, we came up with the idea that I would read it to him at night.
Well, by the time I got to page three, he was already asleep – and let me tell you, he was not an easy sleeper.
Now that he’s a dad, and his child seems to have inherited his sleep habits – meaning he only falls asleep in the car or with white noise – he figured maybe my voice would help. We tested it out, and so far, it seems to work! The stories are short, but he plays them one after another for my nephew.
Thank you so much the nice comments and the support under my previous article😸
I’m aware that since I left this space, many people have moved on, and perhaps upon hearing this news about how I’ll be continuing, even more might decide not to join me on the next phase of the journey—and that’s okay. I’m happy if someone stays, and for those who don’t, I wish them a beautiful life and hope they find what they’re looking for—whatever it is that supports them on their path.
So, how will we continue on the blog?
With me.
There won’t be any more copied and pasted mainstream social media articles—unless something feels really important, and even then, it’ll be shared only with proper quotes and links. There might still be memes, because I do enjoy humor, and perhaps some music too, since that’s another love of mine. There will be cross-stitch updates, pictures—and the rest will unfold naturally along the way. I have no concrete plan at the moment. I won’t say my posts will be regular—I'll write when inspiration finds me and I have something to say.
An intense August is slowly coming to an end, and we’re stepping into a new month. The energies are powerful—there’s a massive cosmic radiation affecting the Earth right now, which is quite challenging for our bodies. Wishing strength and resilience to all of you.
I have an announcement to make: due to personal reasons and recent events, I’ve decided to step back from the “online public space” for a while. So far, it’s been sheer mental stubbornness that carried me through the difficult days, but it’s getting harder. It feels like the 10 of Wands or 10 of Swords in tarot—emotionally, it’s becoming too heavy to carry.
It’s simply overwhelming to scroll through social media every day, constantly reading and collecting spiritual messages from various people. Each day, I feel like I’m pushing others’ carts forward by bringing their truth and perspective here—each one a different frequency, a small puzzle piece—and holding space for it all through my blog. But it leaves me with no time, energy, or even desire to share my own voice. The blog has become an obligation, rigid and saturated with other people's words and energies—and that’s what makes it heavy.
For those who have been following me for a while and have read my Weekend Vibezz articles, you might remember that at the end of January, I took on quite a big challenge — I decided to create my very own cross-stitch piece.
I’ve always wanted to make something unique, and since this hobby has been a big part of my life for years — something I truly enjoy in my free time — it felt like the right moment. Until now, I had only ever stitched designs made by others, like so many cross-stitchers around the world. But with this project, I decided to take a completely new path.
Since I can’t really draw, and I can’t afford to hire an artist at the moment, using an AI image generator seemed like the best option. I know many people think that generating images with AI is “unfair” or purely derivative of other works, but in my view, it blends learned (copied) techniques with the user’s own ideas — two elements coming together to create something new. That doesn’t mean AI can replace artists — not at all. Human creativity, the soul expressed through the human mind, is endlessly deep and powerful, and AI will never come close to replicating that.
I often browse online stores to see the latest cross-stitch kits or look through PDF charts made by other creators on Etsy, but I never really found anything that spoke to me — especially in this galactic style - I found none. That’s why I wanted to create something truly unique, something that reflects what I love.
The image generation process was pretty rough at first. It took the program quite a while to understand what I really wanted. After about 20 attempts — when I was close to giving up — this image finally appeared. Love at first sight. I was completely captivated by it, in every way. I knew immediately: this is the one I want to stitch. The play of light and shadow on a galactic feline warrior — it had everything.
I did a lot of research on how to turn the image into a chart I could stitch from, and which program could reproduce the original image as faithfully as possible. I ended up using Flosscross, which is free (huge thanks for that!). The setup was easy. At first, I thought the image was too dark, so I lightened it in the program. I also initially aimed for a medium-sized chart, but the result looked too pixelated. So I cranked it up to the maximum — 300x300. Later I realized that would result in a 49x49 cm image — something I’d never attempted before. Oh well, let’s do it! My motto when it comes to my hobby is "if I can sew this, I can sew anything."
I printed the PDF chart, cut the fabric to size, picked the colors, and started stitching. What motivated me was the excitement of trying something new, and curiosity about what it will be like — my very first independent project. When I got to the pink thread, though, I hesitated… Seriously? My lion warrior is going to be pink? Time to rework the plan.
I put the image back into the program, kept the original dark tones, exported a new PDF, picked new colors, and since my printer was almost out of ink, I worked off my computer for a while. Eventually, I realized I much prefer using paper charts — looking at the screen every day isn’t for me. I know many people use mobile apps, but I’m not a fan. We bought new ink, printed the 28-page chart again, and I continued with the updated colors.
Meanwhile, I joined a few cross-stitch Facebook groups, and while scrolling through images and comments, I picked up all kinds of tips and new terms — like “confetti stitch,” which means a ton of different colors scattered everywhere. This design definitely falls into that category, and there were moments it nearly drove me to tears. When I wasn’t stitching, I was watching YouTube videos about cross-stitch tips and techniques, and generating new galactic feline images for future projects. Some of the best images were created with Leonardo AI — and I already have quite a few I’d love to stitch someday, if the stars align.
I started this project on January 24 and finished it on May 30 — more than four months of work, stitching nearly every day for 1 to 10 hours. Winter turned into spring, and then early summer by the time I completed this massive piece. It was a real journey. I learned so much — it took willpower, patience, love for the craft, and a whole lot of dedication. But I never once wanted to give up — this was my creation.
Toward the end, something shifted — I briefly lost the “passion” and the “peace” during a recent solar storm. But it came back quickly, especially after I started working on a stamped cross-stitch piece for fun. It gave me the boost I needed to finally finish the Lion Warrior.
By the way, if you’re thinking of getting into cross-stitching, I highly recommend starting with stamped cross-stitch kits. I’ll share more about that once I finish my current one.
So here it is — the final piece! Unfortunately, the camera doesn’t quite capture the colors — I think it looks much better in person. Personally, I’m totally satisfied with the result… although I’m not sure I’ll ever make a piece this big again, haha..or who knows I can be so crazy again. The finished size is 47x49 cm, with 90,000 stitches and 54 colors. The estimated value is €900, and I plan to sell it for between €300–500. I still need to steam it and frame it. This will be a one-of-a-kind piece… but I hope I´m able to create a whole series of Galactic Felines...because I have the raw material for the picture (no, I won't make it public yet), I just need time (I have at the moment) - and money for yarn (may the Universe will help if I need to bring alive these projects :))
It's 7 am in Austria and while I was drinking my small coffee, 4 airplane pulled the line.
I haven't seen the sky towards us so striped in a long time.
Spring-like temperatures of +17 degrees are forecast for this week with plenty of sunshine... -6 degrees this morning, but it could be up to +15 degrees by the afternoon.
Did they suddenly start spraying intensively in your country too?
It was good to work on it, and I think the end result is very beautiful.
Every project is a journey - this took for me 2 months to complete.
The title of the picture is Eternal Love by Luca-S.
The size is 25x25 cm on Aida 16 (16 stitch in 1 inch) and contain 49 coloured x-stitches and extra back stitch :)
I have already framed it and it is waiting for its new owner.
What is the cat scratching post good for...since my cat doesn't use it for sleeping, only for scratching (nowadays he prefers to sleep on the potatoes), so its new function is that I take photos of my finished pictures on it.
The picture was added to the My Cross-stitch Works page.
WoW what a bang! Our Sun started celebrating a few days ago till now continuously showering us with a lot of different sized M and baby X solar eruptions!
Unfortunately, there are many plane accidents are in these last days of the year...
Since we never know how much time we have left, let's try to live our everyday lives, work for our dreams, and exist together in peace and love.
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Thank you for your attention throughout the year, for being here for better or worse, for visiting the site, for reading, for sharing, for commenting and for growing together!
I would like to wish everyone a Happy New Year and may your dreams come true in this year 2025!
And a bit humour at last...
See you next year :)
Some years it just works out 😉
As the Austrians say - Einen guten Rutsch ins neue Jahr! aka Good slippery into the new year :)
this is currently relevant, as there are persistent frosts around here
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a little game
mine is - optimistic, happy, powerful, limitless
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and so that you don't go into the new year poor in music, here it is:
I would like to wish all blog readers a Merry Christmas!
If you don't celebrate, I wish you a very nice and peaceful days!
This year I'm going to try to decorate the Christmas tree again and I hope my cat doesn't play soccer with the decorations in the house all day like the last two years.
The post is not complete without music - recommended Christmas music:
haha I just kidding...
but you can't get away without Christmas music - here it is :)
This story is very recent and I am sharing it so that you can laugh with me on the one hand, and if a similar case were to arise, you should also think and consider before jumping into something. Don´t be me.
In one of my weekend vibezz articles, I mentioned that there was a very good opportunity for me to buy my selected cross-stitch kit that I wanted. The option pays 2, gets three.
Unfortunately, the company - Luca S - location is not part of the European Union (Moldova), but since I already ordered a small value package from England, I thought that the customs costs would not be too bad. Oh, I'm naïve 😅.
I ordered and paid for the package, I actually received the 3rd x-stitch kit for free and the postage was also free. To my surprise, the company sent it to the post office the next day and then I saw that it was coming from England, I think from one of their depots. It was already in Austria during the weekend and approx. it took 4 days at the postal customs service.
It finally got out of "captivity" last week Friday and I received it today... but I also got a bit of a shock when the post lady told me how much it would cost me to get it.
It surpassed all my expectations and I blinked like a fish in a bag - it cost 87,87 euros. I paid (bye my saved money 😭), brought it in and started laughing. I made the purchase of the century! (irony) The money I saved with my 3rd kit and postage, I now spent on customs. I calculated that if I had bought all of this in the German online store from which I am used to it, I would have achieved about the same result. After the laughter came the thought "what the hell did it cost so much", since I paid almost 50% of the value of the package for customs costs. This is complete robbery...ok, there is a 20% customs tariff... the value limit is 150 euros which I overstep... but how did they come up with this amount?
England, why did you leave the EU?
Anyway, out of curiosity, I read the Austrian customs reviews on Google (I haven't read so many bad reviews in a long time) and I am very grateful that I received my package within a relatively "short" time, unopened, undamaged and complete.
If by chance I want to open an online shop and order from outside the EU again...well, I probably wouldn't do it. Now that was a "big" lesson.
It was really a very good offer, the company was fast, orderly, reliable and I would order from them again, if only the customs tariff wouldn't be so...so high. I didn't think of that. That's why I laughed when I think how good deal I made and in reality about this tax thing - no.
But it's funny...my purchases of the decade...and the big robbery.
Now I'm praying that whatever I've invested in this hobby comes back...
These will be my next projects :
This 1st picture took my heart a long time ago, - it´s gorgeous...and this will be my biggest picture yet.
Thanks for your attention, if you order from abroad, really look into the customs costs, because an offer is useless if it's not worth it. This was the lesson - research work - but even so, sometimes the math doesn't work out.
My mom is a spontaneous person, so driven by a sudden idea, she invited me on a short mother-daughter trip in September. It is not the first time that we go on such a trip if our time and budget allow and we discover our destination together, except if she wants a spa-wellness relaxing trip, because I am not the best partner for that, so in this case my mum take my dad on such trips.
The destination she chose was Tapolca in Hungary. Tapolca is in the "castle" county of Veszprém, close to Lake Balaton and it´s main attraction is the Malom lake located in the heart of the town.
We chose the Hotel Gabriella, located in the immediate vicinity of the lake, and its top floor, which had a great view of the lake, as our accommodation. The room was spacious, well furnished, warm and quiet.
Unfortunately, it was raining throughout our first day, but that didn't stop us from walking around the town and around the lake. The Malom Lake (Mill´s Lake) is beautiful even in rainy weather, full of koi fish of all colors and many ducks.
Tapolca means warm water in Slavic - the spring water emerges at 18 degrees from the karst cave system below the town. Due to its temperature, the water of the lake does not freeze in winter. Beneath the city lies the 4th longest cave system in the country.
The lake is fed by the Tapolca stream, the damming of which created the Malom lake, already in the time of the Romans. Right next to the lake - which is also called the Great or Upper lake - is the Small or Lower lake, which is another they were created because of a mill.
The other attraction in the city is the Fish stairs, which is the work of local artist Judit Varjas and is really very beautiful, but unfortunately many things have already been stolen from it. She worked for 16.5 days from 7 in the morning to 7 in the evening to prepare for the inauguration planned for the 2016 Trout Festival: she sketched, primed, painted and varnished, and finally used 30 kg of paint for the 27-stair creation.
Of course, I couldn't miss the vacation umbrella pictures, which my mom took laughing...if that umbrella could talk...save many rainy holiday of mine.
The other main tourist attraction in Tapolca is the Tavasbarlang (Lake Cave). The accessible section of the lake cave of Tapolca is 250 meters long, of which 70 meters are dry and 180 meters are covered with water; you can get to know the latter by boating. 73 steps lead down to the cave. The air in the cave is humid (95-98% humidity), with a temperature of approx. 20 °C. Visiting the visitor centre approx. it takes 1.5 hours, of which 15 minutes is boating. We wanted to check out this cave, but since none of us were brave enough to go boating, let alone paddle, we skipped it. But my mom's plan is to go back with dad at some point in time and let him row in this lake.
I can say that the rain completely soaked us by the time we got back to the Hotel, and unfortunately the electric towel dryer is not exactly the fastest way to dry something on it. Since we were hungry, we went out again in the rain to eat at the restaurant we had already selected. The service was good, the food was tasty, but not a large portion for the price. It seems that our favorite restaurant in our city is completely spoiled us, because we usually get such a large portion for the price-value ratio that we can hardly eat the whole thing and those are also very delicious. (Spoiler - if you visit Zalaegerszeg, try the Kiskakas restaurant).
By the time we got back to our room, my mom was hungry, but we brought "cold food" and bananas from home, so it wasn't a problem. We spent the evening playing together - Forbidden Island - I recommend it, because it is very fun, not so easy if you have not much luck and fast. Unlike other games, you have to work together to win the game, but even that is no guarantee of a successful mission before the island is completely submerged. https://boardgamegeek.com/boardgame/65244/forbidden-island.
The next day we woke up to a beautiful sunny morning, and I think this was to prove that Mama Gaia doesn't always give me rainy days during my vacations. There was a buffet breakfast at the hotel, after which we took a long walk around the lakes in sunny weather. The local souvenir shop opened and sold fish-duck food in all sizes, which we bought, and according to the lady, those were made in such a way that they were not harmful to the water of the lake. I really enjoyed the feeding. Unfortunately, the fish didn't get much, as the ducks were very fast and followed us all the way. I called them mafia ducks because they hardly left anything for the fish.
Thanks to the good weather, we discovered that there are not just only colorful koi fish in the lake, but also smaller black fish that are well hidden among the algae.
We walked around the city for a bit, then we visited the local museum, which is famous for its old school classroom - basically it is a school history exhibition. It was a trip back in time for my mother, as she used most of the school supplies on display during her school days. I think it would be such a nostalgic experience for me too, if I could see the toys and technical devices of the 90s in a museum.
Of course, the museum also exhibited archaeological finds, the life and work of the city's famous poet, as well as old photographs and tools from the past.
After the museum, we decided to climb a mountain and see Szent György - hegy alias St. George's Hill (414 m), where the famous basalt organs are located. We could only rely on google gps, but we couldn't turn around in 1-2 places, as the other driver was impatient behind us, or stuck to the back of our car, or my mom didn't like the mountain road.
My mom drives carefully and is also take care of the car, but the road leading up the mountain was not really good, as the car often got stuck and suffocated as it scraped the stone-strewn road.
We parked on the side of the road and walked... a lot, uphill, which is not my favorite. I told my mother that I bet we go around the whole mountain...and I was right. We chose the longest route, but in return we found a nice vantage point from where we could see all the way to Lake Balaton. We didn't meet people for a while, but when a married couple came across us, we were very happy. Our first question was "how far is it?", and my next question was "is it worth it?".
I really liked the directions "After the second fallen tree, it's not far from there, but the path is very slippery to going down, so be careful". They even showed pictures about this place.
The road was no longer uphill, but the famous question "Are we there yet?" was often asked. (Shrek cartoon- Donkey's question). Our way was blocked by a fallen tree, which you either climb over or go around, and we were very happy, because we found the first tree. After that, we found the second fallen tree and soon we arrived at our destination. The path down was really rocky, steep and slippery, but worth it. The basalt organs were actually very beautiful and huge.
The base of the mountain comes from the sediments of the Pannonian Sea, on which layers of basalt and basalt tuff were deposited 3-4 million years ago by a series of volcanic eruptions. When the surrounding Pannonian sediments were destroyed, the area protected by the basalt cap stood out from its surroundings. The basalt organs are 30 meters high and 1.5 meters wide.
We then took a leisurely walk to the car and headed back to the hotel, but at the fork in the mountain road we both forgot where we came from. Of course, the phone GPS showed the fastest route, which turned out to be not the best. By the time we noticed the quality of the road, we couldn't turn around because of the steepness of the road which covered with many tiny stones. My mother was mad, as she was afraid that we would either get stuck on the rocky road or the sharp edges cut off the brakes... well, in that case, we would have made it down really fast. We descended slowly, went into some holes, come out of it, up and down, the car was shaking, we prayed, my mother scolded the female voice of the GPS madly, the tension was hard as the basalt cap. We made it down successfully, but the car suffered battle damage, as branches by the side of the road scratched the carrosserie from the rear light to the front rear-view mirror. My mother wasn't happy that day...but that's what happens when two spontaneous women head off into the wilderness without a sense of direction 😅.
But there is another funny story about the first day, when my mom used the safe in the room and locked the door before entering the code. The Universe made sure that we girls don't spend our money. You can imagine that my browser history was full of things like how to open a locked hotel safe or whether koi fish is edible (I was really interested about it - it´s eatable 😄). I told my mother that in the worst case, we would take the whole table home, since the safe was glued to it, or we would buy a metal saw at the nearby DIY store. She didn't reward my ideas but she laughed. But the next day the receptionist opened it for us with a smile...seem so not we are the only ones who do things like that.
This is how this vacation became memorable. Do you think there will be more mother-daughter trips in the future?
That day we ate in the hotel restaurant, where the food was very delicious and filling, for the same price as in the other restaurant. Later we took a walk around the lake at sunset and I saw a beautiful cat looking at the fish or the ducks with such longing in her eyes as to which one would be the best for her dinner. I had to go over and pet her, the kitten and I both liked it, and then we parted ways. Later, from the window of the room, I saw another cat begging food from people under the tables outside the restaurant. That evening we played the board game again, at least 3-4 parties, and then the day was over.
The cat went to work early in the morning and was waiting for the guests.
The next day we were also greeted by good weather. After breakfast, we checked out of the hotel and went down to Lake Balaton, since I haven't been there for many years. We took a walk on the shore of Balaton, but since there are no ship trip there, we admired the new ferry.
On the way home, we stopped in Sümeg, where the Sümeg Castle is located. We both love castles so we spent some time there. We found a free parking in the city, looked at the beautifully decorated church, and then headed towards the castle. Of course, we almost walked around this as we followed the road. There is an entrance fee to the castle, and as we entered, an old man in medieval clothes greeted us and invited us for a guided tour, for a small fee. We didn't have to wait long before everyone arrived at the trap door of the castle at the agreed time and we started the tour. The old man told a lot of historical information about the castle, then rumors and legends. We found it very interesting, but the story of the castle's toilets remained the most, as in wartime you never knew you would return from there, or not as the enemy shot them with love and one of the castle captains died that way... My mother and I have in common that we are always remembering to the stupidity and surprising things. I knows that among the many facts and historical things, this story comes to our mind first, the second is the Turkish-Hungarian couple in love story, and finally a sad story about a castle captain who was cheated on by his wife and killed his wife along with her lover.
The castle consists of three larger units, the outer, inner and citadel. Its construction can be divided into several eras. The oldest part of the castle was built in the 1260s, in the 14th century, in addition to the structural strengthening of the castle, the walls of the citadel and the upper level of the Old Tower were built, and the existing buildings were repaired. Major expansions of the castle were carried out during the 15th century and the next large-scale construction started after Veszprém fell into Turkish hands in 1552 and the bishopric fled to Sümeg Castle. At that time, the bishops had enough money to maintain, expand and rebuild the castle.
There were sharpened piles and water in the castle´s moat.
The roughest part was in the castle, the castle prison aka dungeon, where many dolls symbolized various cases of torture and execution. There is also a chapel in the castle, where weddings are held to this day, which I really liked, although not the chapel, but my mother did not share my ideas of this kind for a wedding. I don't understand why. How many people can say that they swore loyalty to their love in a medieval castle?
I really liked this - a child's custody cage. A mother locked her child there as a joke and pretended to leave. The kid had a sense of humor and even waved.
There were also animals in the castle, big geese, cute goats that could be fed, as well as rabbits, ducks and chickens. Yes, I fed the goats, but for that there was a separate basket of chopped root and carrot pieces, and it was free. Various buildings in the castle were freely accessible, such as the rooms of the baker, the blacksmith, the administrator and the castle captain. There is also a restaurant in the castle that hosts medieval feasts and have medieval jousting too, but it was too late for us to check it out.
Our way back home was fast and good and we enjoyed this little holiday, and for the next day the weather become again rainy and cool.
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